Smiling on the Outside

You thought you could see through the pain
The mask of fake smiles
The deadened senses that always fail

You thought you could breath beyond the oxygen
That mixes her into your life
The one that harms you in suicide

You didn't see the fake smiles
That turned instantly into frowns
The ones that inspired much, but not enough

I might be smiling on the outside
But never on the inside
And as soon as you left
It turned