I dont hate you at all

I hate you for thinking that your so fine
i hate the fact that i like you but your not mine
I hate that your better than me in everything you do
Even when we run I'm always one step behind you
I hate that you can ignore me like that
You hug me goodbye but you never look back
i don't want to be treated that way i want something more
but i ruined that chance when i put you out the door
no one knows but now i admire you from afar
I keep my feelings locked up all kept in a jar
My heart wants you to know but my mind say you don't feel the same
I can't believe i lost this round, i lost this game
I hate that i can't tell you how i feel
I scared of rejection, and whats real
But what i really hate about you is that i don't hate you at all
Because every time i try to hate you i seem to lose my balance and fall
And the fact that every time i fall you always help me up
I cant hate you for that and thats just my luck
when i like you ,you liked my best friend
I guess it just wasn't meant to be especially in the end!