This is what he doesn't get...(part 1)

I'm holding on,
not letting go,
but he wants to leave,
this i already know,

I tell him i love him,
i explain how much,
but even though i tell him,
i can't get him in my love clutch,

every effort i have tried,
every tear i cry doesn't seem to matter,
because no matter what i do,
his heart i can't seem to flatter,

yes he says he says he loves me,
but what what does love mean to him,
just talking with someone,
to keep their heart from turning dim,

or is it something deeper,
where you under stand there happiness and pain,
and you promise that promise,
you won't ever cause them rain,

If i love him,
do i let him move on with his life,
or should i keep him,
so he doesn't cause me strife,

i love him so much,
but i don't think he understands,
he doesn't get that i need him,
erase the past pains,

i want him to love me,
as much as i love him too,
but somehow i don't think he does,
i don't think he means it when he says i love you,

he never explains it to me,
when i ask him he says he can't its too hard,
everyday he doesn't,
i fall deeper into the graveyard,

he doesn't get he's my life,
he's my day and night,
he just doesn't understand,
without him my life wouldn't be bright,

he doesn't get I'd die for him,
or give up everything i own just to be with him,
he just doesn't get it,
and it makes my heart grim,

he's my smile when I'm happy,
my tears when I'm sad,
he's the water,
that puts the fire out when I'm mad,

he doesn't get i need him to live,
or that i wish he'd be mine again,
he just doesn't get it,
i have so many things unsaid,

he doesn't get that i love him,
and that we are my destiny,
for my love for him,
his mind,heart,and eyes are so blurry,

i want to tell him we should be one,
or that we could be together,
but somehow i get this feeling,
he would say never again ... never,

when he's feeling down,
I'm right there sticking by,
when he talking about dying,
i don't leave and say goodbye,

when he tells me his problems,
or sad things about his life,
I've never turned away,
left him alone in his strife,