Thoughts of strange pity

My stomach drops down lower than ever
I lose all hope I was grabbing onto
Was it really you, who had wanted to be together
Cuz I feel a sickening
Deadly like the flu
When I'm talking to you

You're lucky you're so broken
Thats the only reason I'm not hurting
You anymore than I did him
I guess Ill never win
But the marks you left on my heart
Will never come off
They're gonna leave scars

I'm speechless and wishing
You weren't still the one I'm missing
I promised to save you
Even if it kills me
But who will save me
I don't think this is a fair trade
And its all your fault I don't know what to say
I hate how I'm so into forgive and forget
Though you're like a bullet through the for head
I don't know If I'm ready
To hurt you too, or give you pity

I'm still standing in the middle of this road
Confused as to where to go
Id walk in both directions
Till i was over my obsession with you
But once you start
I cant pull away
And I'm not quite ready
To say the words I cant say
So if its allowed
Ill stay right here
Away from all the crowds
They don't understand me
As well as you do

I'm speechless and wishing
You weren't still the one I'm missing
I promised to save you
Even if it kills me
But who will save me
I don't think this is a fair trade
And its all your fault I don't know what to say
I hate how I'm so into forgive and forget
Though you're like a bullet through the for head
I don't know If I'm ready
To hurt you too, or give you pity