I'm tired of this life

I'm tired of this life
That repeats
Because it causes more fears
For me to defeat

I'm tired of hiding
Whenever he's near
He's one of my
Biggest fear

But still I keep quiet
Without anyone knowing
Because then, my tears
Will be showing

No matter how much
I hate him
My mom will
Always love him

He is a monster that
I will hate forever
But whenever I'm gone
I know they're together

I cant do anything
So I let it go on
I write these
Poems and songs

When will
He disappear out of our life
I don't want
To be the one who picks up the knife

I don't want to
Be a person who kills
If I am I will
Have to take pills

But I am still waiting for
The day when he'll disappear
But the more I wish
The more he re-appears