Selfish

Yes i know the title speaks for its self. but it truly reflects myself. I have a crush on a girl that Ive been col with for a very long time. i think id go crazy if she was to ever leave my life. I don't really get to talk to her anymore but i get her to myself every now and then. But in my mind theres a scene replaying again and again. of the time i thought she was mine but i was living in a dream. oh how much of a reality can a dream seem. i loved her and she loved me. it was just us in the world soon to be three. but it was more of a fantasy of what was to come. but i know that could never happen because of what Ive done. not really what Ive done but who Ive been with. because of my relations with that one person a relationship with this woman is a mere myth. I want her so bad and almost don't care what id have to go through to get that angle of such stature. i have to aim high for heart to capture. i want her to be mine and i want to be hers but i would be selfish if this were ever to occur. I want her to myself so i could express my love for her all the day long. and would hate when we parted and would maybe even write a song. i would be needy and no one wants a needy man. so life without her is what ill have to stand. But i will never let go of that one dream. that i was with her and she was with me