Another Lonely Night

I look into the night
I'm alone
I wish he were here with me so I could hold him tight
My nights are rough and my days are dark
Without him I'm nothing
I need him, I want him
But will he ever know?
I love him, I care for him
And he doesn't even know
I wish one day he'd walk by me
We'd finally meet again
And this time I won't leave, I wont hold back
But will he?
Does he still love me?
And even if he does will he forgive me and take me back into his arms?
Do we have a chance?
I will never lose hope
But my heart is breaking and soon will be broken
I didn't want to leave and I want him to know that
I want to tell him
Face to face
That I love him and that it was a mistake
To ever leave his side, his protection, his love
I remember his eyes
Blue
Calm as the ocean
Yet as rough as the waves
I remember his touch, his feel
His heartbeat too as I lean against his chest
I remember his hair
White as snow but at the same time as bright as the sun
I can remember, feel, my fingers running through his hair
I remember everything
Every single moment
It's strange though
Every move felt out of place but every kiss was filled with grace
My heart is breaking......
And he is the only one who can fix it
But it's too late
Now it has broken, cracked right through the middle
I feel the pain
Running through my body
I wish he'd hold me now and make it go away
Forever
I may feel pain but I can no longer show it
For my tear no longer leak through the cracks of my Eyes
They have gone dry, like the hot deserts
No water to be found
No tears to cry
I'm starting to slowly fade, like a cloud in the sky
But nobody cares and nobody knows
For there are so many of us up there so who would know?
It doesn't make a difference
If I am dead or alive
Because I'm dying inside
I've gone pale without love
The only reason for me to live
But now I have no reason
No destiny to fufufulfillhat's the use of living, so useless, so ill?
Another day's gone by without a sign of light
Everything to me is the same
All dark
I'm walking along a path under trees that are dark
I can feel their sadness
They're alive
But like me, they will suffer, fade and eventually die
Suddenly thoughts race through my mind
I don't know what I'm thinking
I can't tell
It's all too fast
I can't take it
I can't take it anymore
All the guilt, sadness and pain
It's too much
I don't care anymore
I don't want to live
I was given a place to live and a reason to live
That reason was you
But now you're gone
So what's the point?
What's the point in suffering?
My path has finally ended
Like the one I've been walking along
Unless there's a sign, a sign of hope
But I see nothing and hear nothing
Apart from the trees swaying from side to side
I've just about given up hope
But I see something
A shadow
I don't know what it is
But it's getting closer
I can see now
It's a person
He/She is walking toward me
Who is it????????????