Stubborn but wrong

I know I am stubborn and I know I am wrong,
But these feelings inside me are much too strong.
I love him so much and I know he knows it.
But I am so hesitant, why canâ??t I just show it?
There were times I wanted to tell him how I feel;
How he stirs my emotions in my heart he did steal.
He was always so sweet, while I was so cruel.
But I love him so much, who am I to fool?
Many times I left him to walk away hurt.
â??I love you so muchâ??, I just wanted to blurt.
I know in my heart that I should say sorry;
To spill out my emotions so I wouldnâ??t have to worry.
But then I become stubborn and he walks away.
He has no idea that I want him to stay.
Over and over I would pick up the phone;
But then I press the button and thereâ??s the dial tone.
I know that Iâ??m wrong, I hurt him so bad.
It kills me so much to see him walk away sad.
The words that I told him were not at all true.
Now I wish to tell him, â??I just want to be with youâ??.
My heart is so heavy, so full of regret.
I want to say sorry, but will he forget?
If only I could just go back in time,
To take my words back so that everythingâ??s fine.
Because now heâ??s not talking and neither am I.
I am hurting so bad and I just want to cry.
I want him back, I want everything right.
I want him to hold me in his arms so tight.
But I am the one whoâ??s wrong, I must realize.
I must return to him and apologize.
If I remain stubborn, weâ??ll both hurt more.
I have to mend his heart, the heart that I tore.
I want to tell him that I have one thing to say.
I never meant to hurt you, please donâ??t walk away.
I know I am stubborn, and I know I am wrong.
But without you baby, I will never be strong.

~this poem is dedicated to my wonderful friend lamiaa..u noe u love him gurl~