Feel guilty for not being there for you ...
even though i know i can't
I feel your suffering i feel your pain
i feel like crying ..
every time i think of your once beautiful face
the face that has withered and worn away...
i got a call from a relative telling me they heard you got aids..
my heart dropped ...
not you ..it couldn't be ....the one person who was always there for me
Now I'm confused now I'm torn ....i can't be there for you ....
haven't seen or talked to you in awhile...
wondering where you are ..are you ok ?
are you dead ..are you alive ..are you dying ...
so many thoughts so many things running through my mind..
to many to accept and understand at one time ...
my mind running wild ..
knowing I'm running out of time ..
wanting to call but not knowing what to say ...
no one can seem to get a hold of you ...
you keep running away .
trying to live your life ....
but baby your doing it the wrong way ...
i can't figure out the right way to explain ...
you always told me to be all that i could be ...
never let anyone be the judge of me ...
do good in school and to live my life to the fullest ....
not its my turn to tell you the same...
your bigger than the life your living ..
you deserve better ..you are better ...
never settle for what your given ..
you've got to fight for what you want ...
don't just deal with what you got ..
do better ..be better ...don't let everyone's opinion of you limit you ....
don't be what they expect ..be the exceptional ....
I'm sorry i can't be there for you my love ...
but know that in your heart i lie and your in my thoughts ...
your always on my mind ...
just make me a promise ..until i see you until i talk to you ..
Please just don't die ...Fight and be the strong person i once and still know u as..
i know everyone's walked away but i am and always will be here to stay
