Note to Self

Pop another pill
Do another line
Smoke another blunt
Everything will be fine

Have another drink
Punch another wall
Cut the skin so deep
It makes it better, after all.

The substances, they help
No matter what they say
Its the only way
To take the pain away

Shut everyone out
Don't ever let them in
Keep everything inside
Must keep it hidden

Frustrations run deep
As you lie alone and think
Feeling all the pain
More with every drink

You know you've had enough
But don't stop now
Why ruin what you've got going
You'll make it through some how

Forget the pain is there
If only for a while
Push it all down
Force out a fake smile.

Pretend that you are fine
Your not addicted to it all
Make it through the day
At night you can take your fall.

Stuck inside this life
No changing what you've done
It hurts so much to remember
But wasn't it just harmless fun?

You've hurt too many people
But mainly only you
You did it all yourself
Look what you've put yourself through

Believe a world that isn't real
Even if you know the truth
Its not hard to live a lie
Hell, you're living proof.

**written as a note to myself**