I believe you parents love you very much. As I am a parent and cant imagine that they could not their child.
I am often hard on my girls too. I just want them to be the best that they can. To learn from there mistakes and mine. I tend to lecture and they hate that but if they get just the basics of what Im tring to say then perhaps it is worth the pain we sometimes inflict upon eachother. I remember my fathers lectures and I said that I would never be like that, but as I grew older I realized that I had taken most of his lessons to heart.
Take the lessons with you through life and leave the harsh way that they can be taught behind you and you will perhaps be a better teacher yourself when you have children.
Its great that you are able to get your feelings out through your poetry.
Hang in there. Your poetry may one day help others, as it is very heart felt and real.

This is so amazing. i wish i could write like that. keep it up. love ya!!!

Oh, Raychil. Please don't feel worthless. You're special, and talented - and sometimes, people don't see that. One of my problems is always wanting to live up to people's, very high, expectations. It wears me out, drains me, and I almost want to give up all the time. And I feel like I'm a failure. But then I slap myself and I'm pushing myself to make something of myself - and I know it's gonna be hard to not go back into depression, and I know it's gonna be hard to stay on track - but I think it'll be worth it. Poetry is amazing, isn't it? I feel as if mine always sound jumbled, but this sounds really well. "Keep ya head up", words of a true guy who made something of himself.