Patience

Patience, I know its hard
I'm not easy all the time
The difficulties come when
I am scared of what is mine
I wish the paranoia
Didn't eat me up inside
That I could lose all my worries and
Remember to be alive
The sensation of being cared for
Is a foreign feeling for me
I want to be a different person
And I wish that you could see
That I'm trying, oh I'm trying
For you I want to be the best
But strong change is so hard
And of this I must confess
So patience, please have patience
In this rough and jagged ride
I will give my all to you
If only you'll stay by my side.