Feeling suffercated

I feel like I am being suffercated ,
very slowly for the past 12 years.
Telling myself its normal in a realtionship ,
but now i find myself close to tears.
It began when we moved in together ,
his orders to how things should be.
I told myself its because hes older ,
that meant he was much wiser than me.
Before we met many friends I had ,
and I was always out and about.
But then we moved in together ,
my friends calls would make him shout.
In time my friends stopped calling ,
knowing that he did not like it.
So stuck at home and lonely I became ,
being a housewife and doing my bit.
After our youngest was born ,
out to work he allowed me to go.
At work I got to make new friends ,
within 3 months his anger started to show.
He would say that I must like someone ,
not only that he said he couldn't cope with the kids.
I decided for the best to give up work ,
hoping that would then restore some bliss.
The only one made happy by this was him ,
knowing all the time where i would be.
Everyday he goes off to work ,
and everyday he rings to check on me.
Lonely now the kids are all at school ,
so again work I have returned to.
But once again he's getting jealous ,
because I am doing what I want to do.
I can't go on feeling suffercated ,
and doing everything his way.
lately i have started to hate him ,
sorry I know thats an awful thing to say.