Unwish My Every Wish

I wished it would happened
i wished it was true
i wished that i could make it work
i wished that i could tell you
i wished for the dream
i wished for someone to love
i wished he'd love me too
i wished that i could find a trust
and i ended up with you

everything was so great
everything was fine
everything felt like it should be a forever

now i wish that i could go back
and unwish my every word
unwish my every dream
so i wouldn't be so hurt

i wouldn't feel the way i feel
i wouldn't speak through tears
i wouldn't have to live this lie, from day to f**king day
i wouldn't feel so bad, this wouldn't be so deep
i wouldn't have to hold my breath, and i could clearly speak

i would have the strength to move on
i would have the smile to brighten the day
i would have the heart to save a soul

but all i am left with
is another f**king mess
more bulls**t i have to deal with
another thing to fix
another way to shed a tear
another reason to slit
another way to ruin my day
another reason for this
another reason to scream at you
for making me like this

if you had never taken my hand
never whispered in my ear
never held me close
never made those promises
never lied to my face at all
never told me you loved me
never said that you cared
then the one i was would still be here

i wouldn't be so fallen to pieces
sinking into the ground
slipping into my nothing
the unbearable and un-found

if i had never taken your hand
never listen to a word you said
if i had have moved along day by day
i wouldn't feel so dead
if i had never dreamed up my own nightmare
then this wouldn't have a start to end
if i never let my heart go
every piece of my soul would still be there