Just want to die

(today was just one of those days. Ive been so happy for the past few weeks..and for some reason, it all changed :(

i cant take it
i am so sad and alone
i feel i have no one
with my life, I'm on my own

i hide the tears in the day
they pour out at night
i cant help but hate myself
for not winning this fight

school is just so hard
i work off my butt and tail
mama and dad so disappointed
grades say Ive failed

work is complicated
i don't like the people there
they don't give me chances
they don't no me enough to care

my boyfriend is an a s s
we have been together for a year
treats me like s h i t
in my eyes, always a tear

i have such trust issues
so friends are hard to keep
they will never understand
why i have tears to weep

my cutting is out of control
wrist so bloody and red
tore up because of
the things they have said

Ana and Mia, the worst!
never letting me love who i am
always too fat
never doing the best i can

life right now is just too much
such a joke in disguise
days like these
are when i just want to die....