How many times have i wished for your triumphant return?
How many times have i been left torn and hurt?
How many times have i wanted you here?
How many times have you caused me tears?
How many times have i wished for your presence?
How many times were your answers hesitant?
How many times have you left with no reason?
How many times have you committed treason?
How many times have i felt you didn't want one?
How many times have i grown jealous for those who have you?
How many times have you thought of me too?
Countless times i have wished for a Father, All i have ever had was a "father" in my mother.
Countless times i have cried pointless tears, Thinking you could tame my fears.
Countless times i have dreamed for a dad, Thats something i will never have.
Countless times i have envisioned your presence, and imagined it would make a difference.
Countless times i have thought it was me, That I should say sorry. That you don't love me.
After all those times nothing has changed. Not your absence and not my love. After all these years none of it has gone, it hasn't dried up, it hasn't evaporated or turned to acid.
My love for you is still here and I'm still shedding all these worthless tears...
