Lone, Unknown

Never have I felt so lone
After such horrific sins
To view a horror movie
Listen to my story

Sinned before marriage
Not a lie all truth
Yet persecuted for it by "friends"
For speaking any of it

Their faults brought to light
Fear gripped sinners
They thirst for stripes
Yet see not fact Satan;devil's always a loser

Never have I thought, I've found?
Unknown to me, was he/is he still?
Never will he wish to come near to me
And given up for friendship & God

Friend married without me there
Married quickly
Spoken nothing of my sacrifice
Yet I sensed as if she cared of it no longer

All is in ruin
Because of my horrific sins
Will it repair? & Will God still give me someone?
My heart on the mend & the unknowns around the bend.