Has anyone ever outright told you,
that you have a heart of stone?
That you're cold and distant to others,
that you deserve to be alone?
Well that's what happened the other day,
and it kind of took me by surprise.
While I know that I'm no ray of sunshine,
I didn't know they could read through my lies.
I laughed it off, but of course,
Yet it still made me stop and think.
So I thought I'd share the thoughts with you,
That I wrote down clumsily in ink.
Years upon years of mental abuse,
May have just finally taken it's toll.
Constantly being tortured by simply words,
Maybe the attackers reached their goal.
Maybe my heart's had enough of the abuse,
So it decided to shut down for once and for all.
It turned hard to deflect the harmful words,
And in place of love it built a wall.
While I pride myself very much,
In being confident and ignoring what they say,
It seems that ignoring just wasn't enough,
Their words got through either way.
For although nothing changed on the outside
My heart's been going through an attack.
Finally it couldn't handle the multi-front battle,
And it shriveled up and turned black.
I don't want to become a heartless girl,
I just want to learn how to love.
