Finally Let Go

I fell in love October 21, 2005
that same day...
that same second...
I never thought things would end the way that they did.
so many things were said and done
that never should have been
so many lies were told
that should have never been believed...
but all that happened
and to this day
i still regret everything
the time that we were ok
was the best time of my life
and when things started to get bad
i didn't think i would be able to make it...
but i did.
when things turned for the very worse
i held on..
and i made it...
without you.
its been the hardest thing that i have ever had to do...
move on and let you go..
it turns out, i moved on without even noticing it...
but the thing is.. i never let go
there were things that i needed to know...
that i had to know.
i finally got the courage to just ask you
i risked everything that i had
just to know the answer to my question.
i needed you to tell me
where we are
and where we stand..
and you did.
February 6, 2007...
was the day i was finally able to let you go.
it hurts me to know that everything is over
and it makes me wonder...
if I'm going to make it
and let you go for good..
then it makes me think about everything that i have gone through
and all the time that i lost...
this is the hardest thing that i have ever done...
but i know i can do it
you're gone..
maybe one day you'll come back..
and maybe you won't.
either way i know I'll be fine
and I'll know this is how its suppose to end
i know i will never forget everything that happened
and i know i will never forget you
i still love you with all of my heart
and i forever will
and that is why i can finally say the four words I've been waiting to say for so long...
I FINALLY LET GO.