Out of Despair

Out of despair for love that has not
matured.
Out of despair for death
that has already planned me.
Out of despair for sex
that weighted us down.
Out of despair for man who is
only misery.
Out of despair for time that
is only dust.
Out of despair for art that did
not visit.
Out of despair for the soul that was
not found.
Out of despair for the self that knew
only shame.
Out of despair for suicide that is
only an alibi.
Out of despair of the world
an illusion.
Out of despair where to
bury oneself?
In study out of forgetfulness
in debauchery by misfortune
but in the sea to wash.