It's actually over...

I spend countless nights unable to sleep cause i cant believe it.
I cant believe that school is over for good because that means so are we.
I never saw this ending probably because I didn't want to look
but now i cant sleep cause of the way things ended between you and me.

The fight lasted for so long; i was so bitter and angry at you
but i thought that for some reason we would have some magical ending.
Instead i didn't even get a goodbye;which was my fault.
When you tried i couldn't even give you some time; time that would have been worth spending.

We had an on and off relationship for over 5 years and when it was good it was really good.
But we were so young we never could control our feelings and when it was bad i used to wonder if it had ever been worth it.

The last year of school was the worst I've ever had in my life.
We fought and loved, fought and loved and fought some more
but for some reason i never really realised that next year we wouldn't be back
That i wouldn't see you anymore.

Now I'm in a blissful relationship but I still spend countless nights with you in my thoughts
I cant seem to get my head into my heart; to tell it that we are actually over.

I think about you, the fun we had, the fights we fought, the trouble we made
and all i can think and hope is that somewhere out there you still think of me
The only thing i want is to let go and move on
but the thought of losing our memories still holds you to me...