The desire to want

Life's passages clashes with anything i want
but what i need is what I've received
as i intoxicate my mind and it continues to bleed
i disintegrate the want and concentrate on the need
and appreciate the forgiveness and ask god what is this
with Christ as my wittiness
and my life i split it into unknown dimensions
but my mind forgets to mention the unreal guidelines
as i provide my mind with the fake sense of infinite real
but real is only what thee innocent feel
because the blood, sweat and tears don't appeal
to thee unbroken seal of the virgin mind
but to our own world were blind
the past stays with me but won't stay behind
i should look back and see how i shine
but to reminisce on the bliss that was never founded
with my world forever clouded until life has arisen
from the prison my addiction