Really a fool

This person that stares back
is it really me?
i felt like i was blind all these years
and i couldn't see

the one who cries to herself
until she drifts off into a nightmare
is that the same girl
with this stare

many time as past
and yet i haven't realized who i was
i lost everything
including your trust

i didn't know how to move on
so i broke down instead
the next thing i remember doing
was banging a knife through my head

i saw red stuff come out
and i didn't know what to do
my soul was screaming out at me
saying that i was so cruel

to torture myself that way
just for you
i guess you can really
call me a fool

now i really lost everything
and who is this girl that now bleeds
i think hard enough to know
that this stupid girl is once again me