One tear..
It sets everything else off..
The anger comes out..
The hurt is released..
I feel ashamed..
Ashamed for feeling like this..
I feel bad..
Bad because I'm not supposed to cry..
One tear..
It makes me panic..
Soon, the fear and frustration overtakes me..
I end up having a panic attack..
That fuels the anger even more..
Then i lash out..
I hit anything..
Anything which is in my way..
I hit the wall..
Smacking my fist against it..
Trying to make everything OK again..
One tear..
A devil inside me is released..
I try fighting it but it always wins..
Older, stronger people always win..
I feel so dirty..
So disgusting..
Its all my fault why this happened..
I should of stopped it..
Then all the memories come flooding back..
And i sink down to the floor, Limp, just crying...
One tear..
Now do you know why i hate crying now?
Do you understand?
I'm just a girl..just a child..
