I can't stop my eyes from turning black
It's like a big slap in the face
October ashes in a box
You conceal it with a lock
Last time you ever saw me was on a late night
In our bedroom you were scared with fright
I had killed myself, it was suicide
Did you ever wonder why?
Forgive me
I hated you all along
From the beginning to the end
And there was no way you could mend my heart, that once loved you
You said you loved me and i believed you
A couple of weeks later we had a fight
You abused me all night
And thats when I started to hate you
You wouldn't let me go
you treated me with pointy words
It was like a stab with a sword
I felt like letting go wondering why you were doing this to me
So one night i tried to get out
While you were sleeping
But you caught me red handed
The tears came
You held a knife in your hand
You said if I left you would kill me
I relaxed and went to bed
Then I heard the t.v go off
I looked in our bedroom drawers
I finally found what i was looking for
I had a feeling I had to do this
You wouldn't let me leave anyway
And what I found was a gun
My Hands were sweating
My heart was beating fast
I finally took my last breath
Put the gun up to my head
Pulled the trigger
And before I knew it
I was dead....
