Tears of Blood

There is so much pain inside of me.
This isnt ever who I thought I would be.

My thoughts tangled up in what life could be,
But I cant find the right thought to set me free.

I dont like my image,
I dont like me.

All the things in life that happened,
Left behind so I couldnt see,
So many scars left upon me.

No one knows what goes on inside of this shattered body.
The sad memories and broken dreams.
I have no longer have wishes, or happy thoughts.

I want to be left alone,
I dont know what love is because I was never shone.

I fear myself and what ive become.
I reached a point were ive cried so much
I no longer cry crystal clear,
In my tears you can see what the silence of pain
Building up inside of me has done.

I cant climb out of this hole so im hating myself instead.
Cant go back, cant fix my life, ive tried so hard.
I cant feel happiness I put up a guard.
I hate life and no longer think I can live.

But I dont think I could take my own life,
Somehow I think there is a little light,
Hanging on by a shred of hope.
Maybe someday ill be me,
But for now ill just put on a costume
So u cant see all the pain inside of me.

Thousands of tears ive shed,
My tears are now blood red.