I saw you today... :(

You know I saw you today...just when I thought I was beginning to get over you. The instant that I saw you I got nervous, my stomach began to turn and I almost started crying...and as much as I didn't want to look at you, I couldn't take my eyes off of you. Maybe it was because I wanted to see if you were looking at me as much as I was looking at you. I wanted to look into your eyes and see if you've felt the pain that I can't seem to get rid of...but in a way I'm glad I didn't...because if you had been happy and smiling, I don't know that I could have handled it. So I guess it's better this way...because if you were sad, I would have hoped that you missed me too and then I would've wanted to comfort you and make you happy because I know what it feels like to miss someone you love and to think that they don't love or miss you...and I could tell you the pain you'll go through and that for awhile everything reminds you of that person...and you miss them so much your heart aches. But I guess you're going to have to find that out for yourself because I'm not a part of your life anymore and I can't protect you from the pain...because you didn't protect me.