With This Love

This dark blanket of dismay
Thrown over me to restrain
My life like body
I resist but it shows no gain
Fighting for air I gasp
Slowly running out of air
My lungs start burning
Sizzling it darkens
I fade into dreams
Of death and misery

No one can hear me screaming
From beneath the earth
I shout to my family
To my friends
And loved ones
Im alive, don’t leave me
The sound muffled by the rain
And thunderstorms sounding
More like the earth is separating
Beneath me, swallowing me whole

Pressure on my shoulders
To be someone who I despise
Someone who was never in my life
I refuse to be who they think of me
I can not be the man they say
I will never go quietly into the ground
Today, I must not show my weakness
For, tomorrow they shall strike at me
Hissing tongues and pitch forks
Jabbing at my soul to kill
What is left of me

Taking a deep breath I collect
What everyone says to be a lie
And make it the truth
Because the truth be told
It was my soul that I sold
In order to overcome the only sure thing

I walk this earth knowing that someday
I will die, when I do, I know I will die with you
Because no life is worth living
Without a reason, without a purpose
Without resolve.