My smile of lies

I hide behind my smile

Not letting anyone see

My dark emotions

The tortured side of me

I know you wonder

I see it in your eyes

But I can sometiems hide

Behind my smile of lies

The pain is so strong it has me numb

So I cut myself deep in the vein

Not wanting to ask for help

Since I'm the one to blame

I silently begin to cry

Right in front of you

You ask me if I'm ok

But once again I smile for you

One Day I was almost gone

And you saw the scars on my wrist

You began to question once again

But I just added another smile to the list

Then the day came

When you found me on the floor

My pulse and life was gone

But my smile was able to hide the truth once more

By the time you finally got help

It was a smile to late

You learned to see a smile

And feel nothing but hate

Hate for not being there

For believing my smile of lies

For ot taking the time to notice

That my smile was nothing but silent cries