Imagining You

As I close my eyes and move closer to his lips
As he hugs me tightly, and squeezes my hips
All I can think of is nothing but you
Imagining that those lips I'm sucking on belongs to you
For even though more than 4 months has passed
You're still not a part of my past
You're a part deep inside me
A part I can never let go of, for you complete me
Away from you I can never possibly be
True that I don't talk to you anymore
That I no longer hear the irresistible voice Ill forever yearn for
That I no longer hear you breathing
That I no longer hear the cute sounds you make while drinking
Yet you're still always with me, always in my heart
For my heart belongs to no one but you, its your special part
I'm dying to see you again, to feel your love
To release my flaming trapped love
To throw myself on you
To squeeze the hell out of you
But at the same time I'm frightened
How can we get back after all what has happened?
You probably have another
And Id hate to ruin anything between you and her
Damn! I guess I should just try harder and let go of you
And forget all the great moments I once shared with you
For its about time for me to stop imagining every guy I date as you