The Story Of My Life..

Sat on the window ledge..
Staring at the sky..
Wondering why its all happening..
Just wanting to cry..

You said it would be OK..
You said its right..
You said it happens to every little girl..
When there in there rooms at night..

You said you really cared..
And i was a special little girl..
You said if i told..
I would get told off..
It was MY fault..

I felt like a bad person..
And i believed you..
Even though i felt so dirty..
So ashamed..
I couldn't tell anyone..

I bet you were glad i felt like that..
You wanted me to hurt..
To feel so guilty..So sad..

I could never cry..
Because it let out my real feelings..
Because that smile everyone sees..
Its fake..

If you knew how i felt..
What you have done to me..
You would realize..
Realize the hurt and pain i have been through..

When i used to see you..
My stomach used to flip..
I knew what was coming next..
And i was SO scared of it..

Why do adults always win..?
Why don't they care..?
I wish they did..
I wish someone knew..
I wish it stopped..

JustAGirl
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