Tired Of Being Burned

Dear Lord,

I'm trying my hardest to forget about my ex-
But the love I once had for him is still strong like a hex

I want to spare my heart from the old feelings I had
But something wont let go of them;
Im still dwelling on the past.

I want to forget him, cause I guess he forgot me.
Him and his ex-gurl just started a family.

It wasnt intenally; it was a mistake, so he say
But I don't care, I just want him to go away.

But do I really want him to go
Since I keep letting him back in?....
.... Do I really ant our relationship to end?

Do I want to keep fighting with his babymomma?...
...Do I really want a relationship full of drama?

Do I really want to keep puttin me through this?
...Lord is it even worth it?

Am I not aware of what Im doing?...
... Or am I doing this on purpose?

Why cant I be free and be with whomever I choose?...
... Why when it comes to love I always lose?
what do I have to do, to forget about this dude?

dont you know that when I look out my eyes
I see my ex in every guy.

this poem is not finished, i had to go.....