After a few moments alone,
I suddenly snapped back to reality.
I saw my love far away,
his back still turned to me.
I screamed his name,
just one more time...
but my words could not reach him.
Everything that was once mine disappeared into the snow.
The last glimpse of him was engraved inside my mind.
I couldn't speak and I couldn't breathe,
I just fall into the snow crying.
My clean mascara,
became rivers down my face.
The once pure white snow turned to black,
my tears formed puddles at my knees.
For a moment though I regained my strength,
I stood up tall and high.
So I screamed his name one last time,
I refused to fall down again.
I listened for a moment,
my heart racing fast.
But all I heard was the voice of the wind.. brushing my hair across my face.
I couldn't let myself fall again,
no.. not again.
My lord taught me to be strong,
his sweet voice filled my mind.
So I ran ahead,
I refuse to disappoint him again.
I had to let him hear my final goodbye.
But after hours of running,
I realized my wish wouldn't ever come true...
once again reality hit me hard,
I'd never have my love by my side again.
Two weeks passed,
still nothing from him.
I turned on the news,
listened to the radio,
I had to know for sure he wasn't dead.
Another week...
still nothing from him.
My heart has finally become an empty shell.
I again realized my dreams would never come true,
all that is left of my love is his sweet memory.
I remember him so clearly still,
his memory is still trapped inside my dark mind.
But with one last look at the scars on my arms,
I decided I had to go there..
the first place love became true.
I ran to the place where we first met,
right beside the icy ocean,
the place where he first stopped my hearts ache...
I looked around recalling it all,
he was the only thing I saw.
I looked into the water,
his reflection staring back at me...
I once again started to long for his love.
But that's when all my fears became true,
when I saw that the snow was red.
I stepped closer to the water,
afraid of the truth.
My love's body was peaceful under water...
my love is truly dead.
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I came up with this part yesterday.. tell me what you think please!! And if you have any questions, just ask!
