Dreams About What You Cant Have

Thoughts of you and I
Cuddling during the day
Telling each other I love you
And the words I love to hear you say

I love you in ways you will never see
And feelings I cant express
You keep trying to be with me
Until you reach success

You say I love you everyday
Even though I donâ??t say it back
The thoughts of us still ramble
My heart is under attack

It beats its regular beat
But it is really torn in two
I really want to hold you close
And never say were through

Even though were not together
I feel as if we are
We interlock in our hearts
Lets wish on a shooting star

Maybe then we will get our wish
And thatâ??s to be together
Maybe destiny will help us out
And maybe give us forever

I care for you more then you think
And I wish I could show you too
But the things in my life are holding me back
The things I am putting us through

Both of our pasts are terrible and sad
We wish we could just forget
Its like when 9/11 happened
And the two planes hit

No one could ever forget
What happened that day
Thatâ??s like me caring for you
There is no time for play

My love is like a heart attack
Serious yet it makes you see
It makes you see what you have
I bring your life glee

But I still cry inside because I know
I know it is not real
I could never have you
You are just something I can feel

Like a dream and I can not wake up
I feel everything like in real life
Including you and your love
I wish I could be your wife

This dream is too good to be true
And I donâ??t want it to ever end
Because here I am happy
And everyone here is a friend

That way no one ever gets hurt
Love hurts so much and it causes pain
Pain to the heart that is so unbearable
It is all just a game

God is just playing with us
Playing with our head
And it is not right
So I will play this game and win instead

I will show everyone how strong I can be
Because no one will get me down
I love 2 people but it doesnâ??t bother me
Suddenly my smile turns to a frown

I forgot I am in the real world
Maybe we will meet some other way
But not right here and now
So every night I will prey

Prey for us to meet again
Or to make our love real
To make it happen in the real world
I just cannot stop the deal

We both said I love you
And I really meant it
But I donâ??t want to be hurt
This is some depressing shit

I havenâ??t felt like this in forever
Now the pain is back
And I want to get rid of it all
But reality is what I lack

It is just a dream
And I will cry in real life
Because I have always wanted
Always wanted to be your wife

I love you.

CLH
9/15/2006