Unlucky in love so far...so instead my best friends are my all....however a new insecurity is setting in the thought that those i love so much might be about to walk out of my life....and thus i did wrong accidentally.
i said things i shouldn't have said without his OK...
i could've done more damage with such powerful statements....and i see that truly they are destined to be...that i was what i felt i was.
but these two people deserve so much happiness... each with their own pain. i have to get over my feelings and attempt to move on with life...act like its not going to hurt at all. always be happy what a challenge i face.
but for them to be happy and together i have to let it go not say things that could jeopardize their relationship... i have to suppress my feelings for him and forget the past of what has happened between us. i have to be happy for their sake and hide any pain i feel...
i crave hugs right now...but I'll get none.
i wish that i wouldn't hurt so easy....
i wish that everything works for them...
sadness is this thing of the past.... at every moment I'm around them i am happy...because i will not lose these two great people.
a broken heart can heal but someone who loses her best friends falls into the depths of pain and finds every day hard. i will try as hard as i can not to get in the way, no matter what it means i have to do. if things get awkward I'll try to excuse myself.
i don't want to purposely distance myself but in the end if thats what is best and things do get awkward i will make a sacrifice for those i love and care about so much.
