You know what do I do most of my time?
I fool everyone into believing I'm ok
But deep down I know I'm not
I try to let it go, but looks like these feelings are here to stay.
I don't want to pretend
I don't want to keep my feelings inside
I've always been like this
But like this, I never used to hide.
I hope you're happy
Because of you I'm not myself
I got rid of everything that reminded me of you
Cards, phone numbers, even photos off the shelf.
I have a photo album
The front cover of the group
Good photo, not getting rid of it
Just because of you.
I know you were angry and confused
But I never expected this
You have gone out of your way
To make sure that everything I try to grab, I miss.
If our friendship had just ended
I'd be fine with that
Maybe then I'd think about making this work
But because of everything you did, that isn't going to happen.
I miss you
But not the person you are now
The person you used to be
Not this stupid cow.
I used to have a best friend
She was the best friend I ever had
Until one day she decided
She decided not to care.
She was special to me, a sister
We talked about our wedding days
We planned them
Remember? We were going to be bridesmaids.
I remember all these times
Then I wish I could go back
To the day where we first met
Telling me the truth is what you seemed to lack.
You left me out in the cold
Nowhere to turn
You made me hate myself and you
You done nothing but leave me to burn.
If I knew then what I know now
I wouldn't have let you sit next to me
I wouldn't have gotten close you
Or trust you for that matter.
I wish I could go back to 1988
I wish I could have stopped you from being born
So that you couldn't have
Left me in this storm.
