Breath of life

I breath in and out, in and out
never knowing when it will stop

Everyday i wonder what life
is holding in store for me

How do i live my life to the fullest??

Why am i here on this planet??

Am i supposed to do something great??

But if everyone in the world was great and lived their life to the fullest...
Would there be chaos??

Should i be one of those people that live their life normal to keep the world from being destroyed??

Or should i be crazy, and live my life to the fullest??

Would people see me as a freak??

Would people see the real me...or is that the real me??

Maybe i should stay normal, and everyone would think that i am normal.

But i don't want to be normal...normal is boring, but normal just might be easier than being chaotic.

Maybe not chaotic, but just life to the fullest....

But what really is living life to the fullest??

smoking pot...
partying...
having sex before i am married...
drinking...

I do not think that this is the answer to my problem...because these seem to be..............normal.

So i pray, for a thousand and more breaths of life, so i can find the solution.