It's Just Me, Your Painkiller

Sitting by your hospital bed
Watching your face turn grey
How could I have fooled myself
You'd be out of hospital someday?

Supposed to have gotten better
Every day you get worse
Once glorious hair falling out
You've caught a deadly curse.

Feeling a lump in my throat
Recalling the promise I made
Regretting agreeing to it now
Think it was my biggest mistake.

Doctor's tell me you only have months
You'll constantly be in pain
You'll start to hallucinate
And feel you're going insane.

As I watch you sleeping
Know I have to do what you asked
Slowly gathering my courage
Preparing for this horrible task.

Stepping across the room
Thinking of the kind person you've been
Heart beating in my chest frantically
Switching off the life-support machine.

Tears strolling down my cheeks
Feel like I'm in some twisted thriller
Why did you have to ask me
To become your painkiller?