What is not coming out

I want to say what is not coming out,
I want to scream so you can hear,
I want to cry over and over till you drown into my sorrow
I need to breathe without this feeling
I don’t understand why I care so much, I hardly know you
You seemed so amazing; I couldn’t understand why you were so perfect
I was oblivious to the truth, I fell into those eyes, that smile, those lips
I wish to see
Your inner self soon shone out
I am just another girl you don’t care for
I wish you could feel my heart, I wish you knew I’m hurting
You say you like me but never said in person
I feel like a fool, I’m guilty of charge
You don’t want me, you don’t want to talk to me, see me, listen or care for me.
I’m not stupid, I’m not unaware
Its funny I laugh in the memory of when we would talk and you’d make me smile
Full of disappointment, full of hope that won’t be fulfilled