So many things are happening these days and I'm only one person. I can't handle all this weight on my shoulders and it's starting to get to me. I've done all that I can but still still I am not rewarded. Why do I get myself into these situations? If there is a god it seems that he has given up on me, turned his back and walked away. It's moments like these that I'm supposed to learn something but I am blind in that I cannot see why it has to be this way. I'm deaf and cannot hear the reasons why and I cannot hear a guiding voice. I am senseless and don't know what direction I am facing. I still feel though but the feeling of dessertion feels so cold with icy winds slamming onto my skin. Every breath seems to freeze my lungs and I can taste the lonliness as I exhale. It tastes like the bitter taste of blood flowing through a broken heart leaking into my lungs. My heart has stopped beating because it has been broken for the last time and still I lie there still alive for some reason that nobody understands. I bet if I could see myself I would be an icy blue pale in the face with eyes glazed over and fingers turned black from frostbite. My only hope is to scream and hope that someone hears me but my vocal cords are frigid with ice and I cannot hear if they are capable of screaming anymore. It seems so dark anymore. What I would give to see that light at the end of the tunnel. The light would be warm and oh so inviting. . .
