Your mad because you just don't want to accept
You don't want to accept because it makes you sad
You think to yourself, if I'm sad then maybe they will see how i feel and decide why i chose to be...
Chose to be this way because it seemed like my feelings didn't matter
No matter how many times you said "I'm here for you" and " baby I'm worried", seemed like you cared but to me i feared.
You shouldn't be worried
for hurting myself is better than sitting here with these crazy thoughts
always running, never stopping, looking,enjoying, just wanting to walk, slow down..it hurts me.
I don't want you to be worried because then who's the one who isn't scared?
I'm scared of myself
please tell me you wont be
I need you more than ever now, so please make me feel that you truly care this time.
now...never...
they are mad because they don't want to accept
accept that you were so so strong and how you could have done this to yourself
They don't want to accept it because it makes them sad
They think to themselves, if she was that sad is this how she felt?
I guess all they can say and think now is..why didn't we notice, and how are we going to get through this now.
She's not hurting anymore
she didn't plan on hurting,or for the last time feeling that pain to be that soon.
