The feeling of uselessness slowly creeps up on her,
she feels like her days are endless,
sitting around the house alone with not even a word out of her,
with out even a person by her side,
everyones has something to do,
some where to be,
she quit what she had,
her job she left,
for she wanted to do something different
in which she all she did was screw up her life once again
this girls has someone to love her,
and she loves him,
but this is a thing he cant control,
she is prone to screw up everything she has that is good in her life,
but him..she hasn't screwed up yet!
she prays she never dose.
she just wants to leave this life,
nothing works here,
start a new life,
but all she can do is scream inside her self,
trying as hard as she can not to resort to her old ways,
her ways of making her self feel better.
Her self destruction.
