Shallow

I'm wading in the kiddie pool
Nothing else to see
I've never known how cruel
shallowness can be
I've never had experience
on how things can get so wrong
I'd never ever thought
not too wait too long

I had loved him so
and he had loved me back
but discipline and depth
were two things I lacked
I left him for his brother
a very lovely man
who left me for a very lovely
member of his band
Then i learned about being shallow
but my lesson wasn't done
because soon more would happen
more things not too fun

He had needed me
But i hadn't needed him
Then he chose her
and my future had seemed dim
And i had needed him
But he hadn't needed me
like i couldn't feel secure
as long as he was free
That's when i had my second lesson
and walked out still blind
Still unsure of my moral
still no depth to find

A man full of amazement
loved me long ago
But another full of beauty
had taken over the show
I left the right choice behind
and trusted my eyes over my heart
and now me and the guy i could've had
have sadly grown apart
that was my third lesson
third time's the charm
I'm now more educated
on shallowness's harm

How could i be so shallow
And not notice til today
and leave so many things behind
That could've gone my way?
Why do things so obvious
seem so hard on spot?
why do things so easy
seem so hard when fought?

Experience I've had
on how things can go wrong
And how things can get so bad
when you wait too long
Grab me from this kiddie pool
Throw me in the sea
I swear to god this shallowness
Couldn't have been me