I'm Sorry Dad

With a heart full of pain,

and a mind full of shame,

I sit here and cry,

my broken lullaby,

I'm sorry I made you hurt,

Took your hope and threw it in the dirt.

I never meant for it to be this way,

Maybe you'll understand me one day.

I'm sorry I never listened to the words you spoke to me,

Now I realize how better off I would be.

I shouldn't have done the things I did,

I was acting like a Lil kid.

You told me to be smart and kind,

I decided to keep others from my mind.

I fought and screamed...

You're hope still beamed.

Until the day it finally went down hill,

The day you found out, it was me I wanted to kill.

I never meant to make life hard for you,

It wasn't supposed to be like this for you.

I steady took drugs,

You swept it under the rug.

We all make mistakes and I should have known,

Instead I was more worried about staying blown.

The liquor I was drinking,

Was more important than what people was thinking

I was a girl acting wild,

More like an immature child.

I hope to change the way I act,

Take all those horrible things back.

I am going to make you proud,

&& my success will scream loud.

No longer will the drug control me,

Sober is what I will be.

No more scars,

No more stealing cars,

I am grown and it's how I am gonna act.

I am taking those horrible things back.

Things are going to get better, you will see.

Happy is what we all will be.