Grew up too fast

I know I'm really young
but I think I've done it all,
the drugs, the sex, the staying out late
even the alcohol.

you know the first time I had sex
I was only thirteen...
nothing but a child,
who didn't know anything

but that was a long time ago,
now I'm sixteen,
and when it comes to sex
I've done like EVERYTHING

everything you can think of
anything you might mention...
yeah okay, I've done it all,
without a doubt or question.

you know a lot of girls my age
are just starting to do things with guys?
and some are just happy
that boys even look them in the eyes?

it seems so innocent......

I got pregnant at fourteen
by an older guy,
now the weight of the world's on my shoulders
and it's not a joke or lie

and now for some reason,
I'm my family's favortie thing to talk about.
everyone's looking down on me
but I'm just tryna figure life out

I guess I've got myself into some things
where the fault was nothing but my own
but just because I've done those things,
doesn't mean I'm grown....

so stop looking at me like that.

*I wrote this because I feel like I grew up way too fast and nobody lets me breathe*