Night of Secrets.

Night of Secrets.

I sit up,
in my bed.
Pain overwhelms me,
was it something he said?

I try to think,
but I cant concentrate.
Its hard not to,
so I once again contemplate.

Pain,
runs across my mind.
Death is the only answer,
that I can seem to find.

The blade,
seems to be the only way out.
I'm scared,
I fear and doubt.

The lies brought up,
will be mistaken.
I myself,
will be forsaken.

Hearts start to heal,
Pain drifts away.
Bodies are buried,
and start to decay.

Sorrow starts to dry up,
the misery,
is all over,
with one quick cut

Stars fell,
the day we met.
and I knew,
I would never forget.

I wont stop loving you,
till the day that I die.
Even though,
it's a fact that you lie.

I take the knife,
hold it to my wrist.
I start to cut,
and then I realize this.

The blade is too dull,
It just wouldn't cut.
and I'm kind of scared,
the wound wont shut.

I push it down harder,
It finally breaks the skin.
Everything is gone,
I don't even care I have commited a sin.

After that cut,
my mind seems to be clear.
I let my eyes shut,
I don't have any fear.

I actually fall asleep,
for once in my life.
The pillow seems so soft tonight,
and its all because I used the knife.

I did something,
I told my self I wouldn't.
But now,
is it really something I shouldn't?