Pain and Misery

There is blood everywhere
its on my fingers its in my hair
on my shirt and on my face
whats this awful taste
i open my mouth to see what it is
i try to stick out my tongue
It wont come out
i thought it was there
With out a doubt
but why the is there blood in my hair
I put two fingers in my mouth
Try to feel for my tongue
ITS GONE
now i feel the pain
ohh the pain of no tongue
I think for hours of how this could be
Am i alive or am i dead
I sit here and wonder
I cant wait it wont come to me
I find a gun on the ground next to me
i slowly and shakily pick it up put it to my forehead
and i FILL MY HEAD WITH LEAD.