Should I?

To many people,
To many voices,

Do I marry him?
Do I really love him?

Should I go after the other guy?
Should I chase the broken dreams?

I don't know what I want,
I don't know who I want,

There are to many things to think about,
There is nothing that is constant,

I need someone to be there for me,
I need someone who can stand strong when I can't,

Does a guy like that exist?
Did I already meet him?

Maybe I'll never know,
Maybe I already do,

There's no way to tell,
There's no one that will hand me the answers,

I know this,
I shouldn't expect them to exist,

Part of me still hopes,
Part of me believes one day I will find them.