My day has been consumed by emptythots.
Everything leads back to that one.
Over && Over.
I want to do something
but i don't feel lyk i have any control
I try talking it out
but it just makes me feel worse.
Why did things have to change?
Now its hard for me to say anything
without me feeling Dumb.
I don't feel i belong here anymore.
Everything about it is foreign
i want to fight but it doesn't seem worth it
I just go back to my misery
Thinking:
What could i have done better to maybe
change what already has taken place??
Every time i talk
i feel worse && worse
i feel inadequate
confused and upset
depressed and unloved
What have you done to me?
These thots have taken me over
and i know
i cant get back what
already has been lost
whats gone is gone
and i can never earn it back
So i hold on now
to these empty thots
to remind myself that
i am independent
and rely on noone
but me.
