Behind Her Smile

The tears start to pour out as she sits on the floor,
Her love wasnt enough, he must have wanted more.

She really cared for this boy more than hed ever know,
She did everything she could, just to let her love show.

But what she saw on his neck was like a slap in the face,
Was she not good enough? Was it because of her race?

Why didnt he tell her he just wanted to be friends?
Why is this the way, that love always seems to end?

Shes been played her share of times before, this wasnt just the first,
But why does it seem, that this time was yet the worst?

Why cant someone just prove her feelings wrong,
That no one in her life will stay around for too long.

Why does she feel like things come and go?
She always gets hurt, cause she lets her feelings show.

She has a love for this boy that she just cant explain,
But now all she feels, is the hurt and the pain.

The girl that he needs, will she ever be that one?
Or is he only concerned with just having some fun?

She just wants to be loved, she just needs something steady,
But maybe he hurt her, cause he just wasnt ready.

She wants him to know that she really does care,
And despite all the pain, shell always be there.

She just wants to prove that shes different than the rest,
Shes not claiming to be perfect, or even close to the best.

But she wants to stand out as a girl thats for real,
And even though shes very hurt, it will soon begin to heal.

She wants him to know that her love was not a lie,
She wants him to know, that yes he did make her cry.

But tears will always dry and hearts will always mend,
And she wants him to know, that shell always be there as a friend.

The paper is soaked with tears and it too will have to dry,
But this wont be the last, of the tears this girl will cry.

She hides behind her smile with so much more inside,
Hell never know her love for him, until the day shes died.

© 2006 Jesi Determan